Friday, September 28, 2007
okae since when has finding for baby gerls clothes tough?! my parents n i went searching the whole of compasspoint (k fine its compasspoint bt tats nt the point) n we cudnt find any nice pweettyy ones! frustrating seh! haha..
a whole week of break n i din reli touch my books much until todae.. pretty bad huh.. bt ive been heling ard the house.. hehe.. i loike! haha.. k fine mayb its cos its juz my hard werk tats y i like.. bt again tats nt the point.. juz tat wen u come to my house for hari raya, dont haf too much high expectations k? hahaha.. its juz a bit diffirent tats all.. weeee~
manz ive gained weight! i mean my parents commented tat i shud maintain dis weight cos at least im not lyk skeletal thin or sumthing.. bt how m i gonna fit into my hari raya clothes??!! haha.. wait wait.. theres oni 2 weeks of Ramadhan left.. lets think abt tat first huh? cant believe 2 weeks has past! i hafnt made gd use of it.. =( well.. since theres 2 more weeks, i will try my best to do as much gd as possible Insya Allah..
todae was pretty screwed up.. my dad din take his home key from the door wen the furniture movers delivered our items n suddenly wen they left n we wanted to close the door, his keys were gone.. haiz.. wad an ending.. bt then again.. tats fate.. at least tat taught him sumthing rite?
*Then I see you standing there
Wanting more from me
And all I can do is try
Then I see you standing there
I'm all I'll ever be
But all I can do is try
Try *
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10:44:00 PM
10:44:00 PM
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
ive faced thru a lot in my teenage years.. some of u barely noe anithing of it.. but it doesnt matter.. theres a lot of scars n emotional baggage in my heart.. i dunno how to let them go.. i cant let them go..
i juz wan constant.. constant pple in my life.. i dun wan pple who come n go.. i dun wan to care n suddenly b backstabbed.. its tiring to deal wif pple who calls themselves a fren but they juz dont trust u.. im tired of others forming an impression of me juz by listening to stories tat they don noe the truth abt.. they dont even noe me.. the saddest part, is when the frens tat u tink noes u well enof, juz doesnt noe u at all.. n its freaking disappointing..
i nd to let dis out.. im not gonna lie, but im sad tat it happened.. im sad tat my relationship wif my old frens r strained bcos of u.. yes im goofy n all wacky but wen i confront u about serious matters, i reli mean it.. wne i saed im not hapie abt ur actions, i tok to u cos i wan explanations.. n u juz din listen or remember.. n u put me in the spot tat i backstabbed u? god.. god i was the one being ur fren the whole time wen others r iiritated wif u.. n it all ends up on me.. suddenly im the bad perrson.. im disappointed tat u had to stoop tat low.. tat u cant even confront me to check on whether i rlei did backstabbed u.. n there u go telling others tat im the rotten egg..
n the others.. dont they noe me at all? they dont.. they juz dont.. i reli don understand y dis happen to me.. i cared.. did i care too much? y m i bothered wif pple hu dont bother? caring is definitely easier than to uncare dis care..
i don care wads ur explanantion now.. i juz wanna let it out.. for those hu did go thru dis wif me.. u noe wad happen.. they r the true frens.. they noe me enof not to juz rely on stupid stories..
ill pray tat i will let dis frustration go.. lyk wad i saed b4, i forgif but im learning to forget.. im learning.. n hoefully wen i do.. if i ever see u on the streets, im able to at least gif a polite smile to u.. for the fact tat u were once an old fren..
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12:41:00 AM
12:41:00 AM
Sunday, September 23, 2007
ok fine im beign tagged.. haha.. thx marena! haha.. bt then again im bored.. so wad the hell..
Each player of this game starts off with
ten weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself.
People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own
ten weird things or habits or little known facts
as well as state this rule clearly.
1) i haf a license but i prefer to be driven ( is tat weird?)
2) weird for tinking so much abt dis at 313am
3) im tired of being misunderstood by known n unknown pple( tats not weird just not known i tink)
4) i haf a weird nickname, weenay?
5) im actually shy wen it comes to shopping, unless its wif close frens
6) i like black n red but i haf a lot of blues
7) i do tear up easily wen i watch sad n sweet endings like in ghost whisperer (haha so kental)
8) i play sports but extremely lazy to exercise ( which i tink i shud start doing)
9) i hate planning for trips or outings. HATE IT.
10) pple sae im weird, but i cant even tink of a few weird things bt myself! i muz b damn weird then!
haha.. k i noe my answers r stupid! mayb u all can answer for me.. hahaha.. n i took 10 mins to tink of the first one.. n i take 20 mins to do dis thingy.. how kental! haha.. k now i shall TAG LYDIA, ELVY, LISA n huever tat reads dis! TAG TAG TAG! haha..
*k dis actually made my nite*
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3:09:00 AM
3:09:00 AM
Friday, September 21, 2007
okae writing essay the whole wek reli takes a lot of brain energy n im stoning a lot tonite.. so ive gt nuthing to write.. bleah.. haha..
Staring right back in the face
A memory can’t be erased
I know, because I tried
Start to feel the emptiness
*-_-*
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11:37:00 PM
11:37:00 PM
Wednesday, September 19, 2007
sitting in the room alone for a few hours, i don noe y im feeling a lil dpress.. i don understand the sinking feeling tat im hafin rite now.. i reli cant explain y i juz feel so sad.. i tink tats the werd for it.. sad.. hmmph.. m i pmsing? y gif excuses for the reasons im feeling rite now.. but im reli clueless..
lets rewind on the journey of my tots for dis couple of hours..
3-4: studying. classroom management. editing my 1st essay a couple of times.
4-5: coming up of points fr my solutions to misbehaviours of students.
5-530: oh i slept. unfortunately no beautiful dreams.
530-6: surf the net. blog hop. pple's tots became my tots.
SO WHERE DOES THIS FEELING COME FREM?
does anione haf the answer?
*uninterested to make choices. priorities-education*
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6:02:00 PM
6:02:00 PM
Saturday, September 15, 2007
assignment due this week. ive not even look at it. im panicking now. but how come my mind still wans to rest rite now. oh ya.. 3 hrs of doing reflections.. k rest then..
i reli hope that this Ramadhan will make me a better person inside and out.. i noe i haf done lots of sins n so i hope that He will forgive me.. Insya Allah..
*let me go*
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11:53:00 PM
11:53:00 PM
Thursday, September 13, 2007
u noe sitting here in my room alone, eating my buka (courtesy of marena!! =D), i miss my famili very much.. the first time i sahur n buka without my parents n bro by my side.. dis reli makes me reli feel appraciative tat they're ard me wenever they r.. i guess its true wad they sae, distance makes the heart grows fonder.. hehe.. n me n my famili's relationship definitly grows better.. funi n weird.. bt its true.. hhaa.. lyk i sae, its the distance rite.. u never knew hw much tat person mean to u until she or he is gone..
was toking to one of my nie guy buddy juz now.. n we were toking abt emptiness.. the feeling of it.. i experienced tat emptiness b4.. but bcos of experiencing tat feeling, wen luv comes ar by the presence of my students, i feel so much love n joy tat i dont tink i haf ever achieve.. even til now, they r asking me to come back to see them cos they miss me.. i reli feel so love..
wad i reli mean is, it takes events or situations tat make u feel appreciative of wads in ur life.. even though, it was painful b4 to experience, the final feeling of the experience is definitely satisfying n juz wonderful.. im thankful.. n i luv the life im leaving nw.. its meaningful n its rewarding.. for those hu brought dis warmth to my life, i reli do thank u so much for sticking by me despite my crappiness, my blurness and definitely my instances of deafness.. hahaa.. i luv u peeps!
=D
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7:40:00 PM
7:40:00 PM
Friday, September 07, 2007
gosh. i reli miss gerls outing! n i had a blast wif LV, Lyd and Fana (oh ya we found her at last courtesy of.. us).. n i luv camwhoring wif them! hahhaa.. k will put the photos up once i gt frem them.. hehe.. i lup u gerls very much!
=D
*assignments. feeling the rush*
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2:22:00 AM
2:22:00 AM
Monday, September 03, 2007
Missing: Farhana Hajiah Najimudin
Date missing: *i cant remember bt its a looonnnggg time ago* (hahaha)
Last seen: Her house
Attire: last seen wearing t-shirt n her 3/4 track pants
If found, please contact us IMMEDIATELY!!
*hahaha.. pictures courtesy of Lydianawati Bte Salleh*
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12:39:00 AM
12:39:00 AM
Saturday, September 01, 2007
Teacher's Prayer
-James Metcalf
I wanted to teach my students how
To live this life on earth.
To face its struggles and its strife
And to improve their worth.
Not just the lesson in a book
Or how the rivers flow,
But how to choose the proper path
Wherever they may go.
To understand eternal truth
And know the right from wrong
And gather all the beauty of
A flower and a song.
For if I helped the world to grow
In wisdom and in grace
Then I feel that I have won
And I have filled my place.
And so I asked your guidance, God
That I have done my part
For character and confidence
And happiness of heart.
*Hapie Teachers' Dae =)*
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12:28:00 AM
12:28:00 AM